Shifted

This is my original work. It is copyrighted on this date. Original Poem

 There was a time I thought you loved me, I time I thought you cared. Not because we share blood, but because you chose to. Well, now I am a bit older, not sure how much wiser, but something has shifted. Have we really grown apart? You seem to see what you want to see, not concerned if what you perceive is fact or fiction. Living in your own reality, oblivious to me.  What once was said in love, now seems spoken out of frustration, maybe even disdain. When you once listened and cared, you now berate, belittle, command. The person who listened, and loved, seems forever lost. Tearing down what once was built from genuine love. If love is patient, love is kind… Why am I falling apart bit by bit, piece by piece? Left in a pile of rubble, feeling useless, ugly,  unloved, unwanted, a nuisance, an idiot. A fool and a failure. Invisible. Now when I need you, as you once were, all I get is discord, not understanding. You seem to forget that I AM HUMAN. I feel, I bleed, I hurt, I cry. I feel small, a nobody. I have dreams, and wishes, hopes, and fears. I breathe, I eat, I have wants as well as needs. I AM NOT A ROBOT. Which you seem to think.  I don’t need you to make me feel bad, I can do that all on my own. I miss the way things were, but the past is gone. What you think is out of love, has only made me feel worse. You choose to  ignore and destroy what little bit of hope and faith I have left. Deaf to my pleas, and concerns, it all seems to circle right back to you, so you feel guiltless and secure, a success. All it ever seems is I do things to please you. Whether or not there useful or beneficial for me. I really do think you live in your little world, ignoring reality. Forgetting things change. Things evolve. Now that I need you more than before, you’re not there. I turn around and only see an empty space, that was contained a loving, caring person. Now all it is a space full of air.